eVeRiTiNk.cHaNgE.siNcE.ThAt.dAe

2010-11-02T05:03:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was an awesome day i guess .. Im glad plus geram 20% je ...
Because i was like 20 mins earlier when he was like 40 mins late .. And i
waited till like 10 trains had passed .. And finally , saw him ..Can still smile somemore ..
Hahaah ... Its a very nice and memorable outing with you boy ..Every single
thing that had been done yesterday is sooo precious ...:)
Really hope that this gonna last long god ...

2010-10-28T05:31:00.001-07:00

Its really really damn bored sitting at home without any plans of what im going
to do for the next following days .. luckily sister is having her school holiday right now ..
To small sis , im gonna pray hard for you so that everything gonna be fine .. so that
you could promote to sec 4 .. i know u're kinda sad , but trust me , ur boify and ur family
will always be by ur side:)

Sometimes , i kept wondering to myself whether did i choose the right choice of my life ?
Will i not be hurt again ? Will i be happy again like i used to be ? It keeps on appearing in my mind ..
To fairul , im sorry cause i cant be back with you again .. I've got enough of you already .. When
you were with me 4 years ago , you went flirting with my own cousin , shasha .. & yet now
you still dare to contact my sister again saying that u've change .. This time round im really
gonna listen to what my parents said .. I believe that they will choose the best for me fairul ..
And to Isa .. I really feel UNCOMFORTABLE being friends with you .. We've only being friends for 2
days and yet u already showed me your true colours .. you were calling me all those names that couples
use & i hate it alot ... i really feel unsecured being around you .. so once again , im sorry ..

Will be meeting Yan this monday at plaza singapura as he said that he loves to watch
movies .. So we decide to watch this new movie called "The last exorcism" .. We
both really doesnt know whats the latest movie that is nice to be watch so we decided to
choose the movie above ... And that movie im the one who choose it ..He wanted to watch mantra but
i've watch it already .. He wanted to watch the child eye , but i watch it already ... So i really
hope i've choose the right movir cause im scared that the movie gonna be bored ... So ya , lets
wait for monday to come ...:)

2010-10-25T05:41:00.001-07:00

<3>

From a waiter , to friends , & finally ,from friends , they became , my mum & dad god son ..
New family members ..They really helped out alot for the sudden birthday song that were
sang by the whole waiter & waitress there while the customer there were looking towards us ..
Hamit & Panjang ,thanks for the presents ..

These are the family whome i've been staying for 19 years .. They were there
during my ups & down .. They were the most supporting parents & siblings that
i've had in my life ..Thanks parents/siblings ... I LOVE YOU <3>

Whats my birthday wish ? This is the question that my uncle asked inside the car ..
And i replied ,"secret,maner boleh bilang" .... I guess my bestfriend knew whats my
birthday wish were ..Kan pita .. Hahaha .. I've always wish & wish & still kept wishing
that 1 day , we will talk .. Been waiting for nearly 4 months .. And finally , my wish come trues ..

-The opportunity was there during our first holiday togather ,but we didnt talk
-Secondly,the opportunity was also there,but i was so sleepy that i slept,& the
next morning i've got to know from my aunty that actually that night,he
wanna lepak with us but since i've said goodnite to everyone,he,cancelled
the plan which i myself didnt notice
-thirdly,the opportunity was so closed,during my aunty wedding ceremony but,
we only looked at each other until the end of the ceremony
-fourthly,the whole family were invited by my parents to our open house and,
we both were in the kitchen with mummy but,still,we didnt talked

Until ........... That day,which is on the 24 october,3 plus am ,finally,we both
talked to each other .. Thanks god .. Still i couldnt believe that we've talked
to each other & im glad that his the one who talked to me first ..

2010-10-22T10:02:00.000-07:00

I will keep on walking .. without looking back at my past life ... what is past is past ... let it be apart of life story ..
Now , i think i should start a new .. Everything new ... And i shouldnt be a scary cat who's afraid of falling in love all over again .. i think i should try to start everything a new ... So ya ,will be turning 19th years old this sunday .. will be celebrating birthday @ JB as parents had already booked a restaurant there .. cant wait for the celebration togather with lovely cousins ,aunties & uncles ... My 19th birthday wish are: to find a perfect job with a bigger salary for the upcoming future ... to pass my driving license so that safita could treat me ... and lastly , to find someone that could be my life partner that up to moms standard(kind-hearted) ...
Time pass so fast that i couldnt believe that i'll be turning 20 next year ... kinda feel old .. even my closest said the same thing that i've said as he'll be turning 21 next year ... so ya , i just cant wait for the year 2011 ... and say goodbye to my fucking 2010 life ...;)

2010-09-26T09:31:00.000-07:00

This girl above .. Nur safita binte razali ... i miss her damn much .. so much that i cant prescribe it in words .. plan to meet her up last friday but due to something , we didnt meet up & the worst thing is that , my prepaid is left with $0.00 ... & i feel bored cause i cant disturb her .. i kinda feel sorry for not meeting you up .. so damn sorry girlfriend .. but i feel relieved knowing that nurul is by your side to accompany you during your school holiday .. atleast i know that when im not able to be by your side , theres someone that i have faith with is by your side to replace my position as your retard friend for time being as im busy with some family stuff this few days .. i feel really relieve girlfriend ... nurul atikah , thanks lots ... i know you would be there;)
soon we will meet ... theres lot of stories , gossips about life .. lots & lots ... & ya ... birthday is coming , theres only 1 wish ... *to find someone perfect for my life partner*

2010-08-03T05:54:00.000-07:00

hello people!!im back!!!!
miss blogging sooo much,its just that im too lazy;)
well as you can see,life right now is great .. last friday
was my off day & & & as usuall,went out the besties & the rest ..
went to yishun,& unfortunately,it was raining ...
then decided to go to punggol ... for what ????
standard lah,take pictures .. it was fun,it was extremely fun with kina
& atiqah togather with us .. many funny experience happen;)
&& its a memorable moment girls .. will plan another
outing soon babey ...
pit,dont forget our plan ok3;)
before 6 day hari raye,ok3 ....miss you girls ...muackz;)

2010-07-21T04:47:00.001-07:00

I just get to know that on the 9 & 10 august im not working -__-
atlast,i can sleep like a pig,hahhaahh ...
we're going Kl,Genting then back to kl then back to singapore ...
wanted to change $300 cause i wanna shop like hell in kl & genting ...
miss pengkong lots ..till now i hhave not finish doing her things yet
cause im damn tired ...;)
will finish those thing soon babey ...
just cant wait for the holidaay trip ... may life head of me
will be brighter ... &&&&& i kept on laughing like hell when i look
at her past pictures when she kept do plating on her hair
and the rambot depan was so lepeh ...;)

2010-07-20T03:30:00.000-07:00

im sooo sooooo soooooooo down ....

jst need someone to talk too & were suppose to met

saf today but she broke the promise ...

nevermind lah,go back home & sleep is much more better ...

just cant wait to get out of s'pore this 6 august ...

holiday again ... need a perfect rest ...

2010-07-19T01:42:00.001-07:00

Owh god ... please recover & cure our sickness god ..
only you whom im scared off .. no one else except you god ...
grandparents are sick,uncle too,& lovely aunt who are
pregnant are also sick ... all of us had the same sickness god ..
i cant prolong what sickness we are facing now as i believe malay people
should know what it is ... plz stop doing this to jaafar family ..
we shed our tears alot ... we might suffer now but i believe,
if we were to die because of this sickness,god will bring us to heaven & god will burn u in hell ..
god,im sick,really2 sick because of this sickness ...
im weak to fight this sickness but god,im trying to fight it
until it makes me cry cause i cant bear those pain and i cant bear seeing
all of us beeing this way ...i need my hands to work god ..
its precious for me..please god,only u whom can hear my prayers ..
cure our sickness god ... please let my hands be as pernormal ...

2010-07-17T01:59:00.000-07:00

People right now must be saying that im avoiding them ..
People right now might think that i did this on purpose ..
I just wish that i could share everything with someone about whats happening
right now to my family .. im shocked ... im angry ...
im scared .. i wish that was just a dream ... i dont wanna us to
be separated parents .. up till now im still shocked about
that morning incident .. it make me sad ... i its true, u've torn my
heart into pieces daddy ..but i was hoping u didnt do it ...
mummy cant sleep,eat nor rest well since that morning incident ..
i dont know what has gone into you ,but i tried to make myself
believe you but still,when i think about this,me myself cried alone thinking
about what should i do as a child .. & qthats the reason why
for this time being,i spent my time at grandma house & sometimes came back
home late from work cause
i just cant bear seeing this situation continues at home ...

:.i dont want us to be separated.:

im sorry.

2010-07-15T01:34:00.000-07:00

hai,its safita posting this post.

deepest apology to erfarhanah cause it took me for so long to change her blogskins.

not only that,i know i have not been spending too much time with her and erra.

& i also know that you guys may have the mindset that i totally forgotten about you guys.

when actually its not.

maybe you are pissed because lately it has been you guys that make the

first move to call me til it came to a point that you feel that i no longer need you.

when actually its not.

believe me or not, i would still think of you guys every then and now.

once again,i would like to say minta maaf kerena meng-neglecting korang.

meet you guys soon when your problems have settled.

2010-07-14T06:11:00.001-07:00

Leading a new life ahead .. A very new life ..;)
i believe i can ... sometimes i regret leading this kind of life ...
so pathetic lah ...haiya ...
nevermind,family situation right now is at stake too ..
Sometimes we are just too scared to went back home when nobody is around
so for time being we went back to ang mo kio,grandma house ...
so once again ,i might be filling all my free time working ..
for time being,i dont wanna went out with those friends first ... gonna settle down
slowly about family things & about the
future ahead ... life right now is just so pathetic ...

2010-06-25T22:52:00.000-07:00

i cant resist that actually i've tried my very best to avoid you after

hearingt to what lil sis said about *** ...

i achieve to avoid that shadow of yours but when i've

met you , i really just dont know why that shadow of yours appears

infront of me again -_-

i couldnt sleep .. i couldnt close my eyes .. all i see is you ..

but nah ... forget it for now .. cause i know its hard ..

i aint a two sided face girl adam my retard friend;)

its just me .. me being myself ...

i only react that way when i feel that i could get along with

those people .. but when i feel that i couldnt get along with

those new people,i'll tend to just keep quiet ;)

i was born to be in this state .. but believe me ,i aint a 2 sided face girl ...

its just who i am suppose to be

2010-05-18T04:56:00.001-07:00

... Its the E.N.D ....
end of every sadness in life .. life is at its happiest moment now:)
with besties & small sister,life is fully complete ..
reached home at about 7 just now .. coincidencely met abg
under the void deck .. he says,
"kakak,nak iPhone tak?"
me:"giler pe,iPhone mahal giler lah biol"
"betol lah,abg blanje .."
owh my,abg had been so good to use lately ..
so people out there,please stop saying that his bad ok ..
so what if he got a tattoo on his body??
so what .. everyone change .. god always gave them opportunity to change..
and to my one and only brother,congrats,cause
next year you are gonna marry ur dream girl:)
im happy for you:)
cause surely,in the future,our house will be filled with full
of baby laughter:)

2010-05-17T04:44:00.001-07:00

Just came back from jb yesterday .. came back at around 11 plus 12pm ..
was damn tired .. and furthermore ,something important went missing ..
its mummy secret keys to everything in her room ..
suspected someone took it .. our family members ..
mummy keept accusing one of us .. but nah,it was just a misunderstanding i guess ..
was damn tired & lazy yesterday that i told mummy that im gonna take MC
today and i finally did .. atlast i've got to woke up late
today .. my whole body were aching .. my backbone is more worst ..
so went to private clinic and asked for pain killer so that i could
relieved those pain that i feel on my backbone ..
he says,plz take precautions on your backbone .. and ya,onve again,im feeling shagged ..
why?reasons plz ..
because.will be starting going to work again tomorow ..
ALOT OF POLITICS AT MY WORKPLACE &&&&
SOME OF THE TEACHERS THERE,MULOT MACAM JUBO AYAM:)
like to say bad things about others ... gasak korang ok:)
soon i will resign:)

thursday is it confirm??i also dont know ... bestfrend lately had been MIA ...
maybe she got no time for lepaking session like we used to have ...
nah,forget it lah .. i was just hoping that u're doing great in your life and love story
no matter how u're not searching for me :)
if u're happy,im happy too:)
best of luck bestfrend .. just so u know,i miss you lots ...

2010-05-14T05:05:00.001-07:00

anonymous:"when you wanna have bofriend?
me:dont know
anonymous:why dont know??
me:because i dont wanna go around searching for love
as i believe sooner it will come by itself

haiya...this people ah,they just cant shut their mouth up ..:)
so what if u got a boyfriend ...is that a big deal??
no big issue pon:)
hahahha ...for me its some how a funny question ..da giler agaknye org
nie suroh carik boyfriend siang2,hahahha ...
believe me 1 day i'll be happy just like you:)

2010-04-27T04:28:00.001-07:00

"LIKE A KNIFE SLASHING DOWN MY HEART"
"WERE SHRED INTO PIECES"

that is how im feeling right now .. u always said that
u dont understand what i've said but instead im the one who dont
understand what actually that u're trying to say .. u always
act as if im the one who started this fight first andy .. no,its not me ..
do you realised that its you who started it first .. i've told
you that shes not reffering to you but u insist that shes talking about
you .. mark this day,27 april,a damn fucking disaster that ever
happens in my life .. i wish to be devoted to you but you just didnt gave me any
opportunity to know about ur life story,ur problems,ur sickness ..
but yet u can still say that u've already gave me the opportunity
but i didnt try .. i tried like hell andy but evrytime when i did
something for you,its always wrong from ur point of view ..
andy,if only u know how much i care about you,it will be great ..
but i know u wont realised..

ps:meet safita just now and share with her everything just now ..
feel peace that atlast i've get to meet her and talked and share
everything as pernormal .. i.miss.you.
looking forward for this thursday outing babe ..
miss those guys too ..aidil and gang ...hahahahhaha...

2010-04-25T09:21:00.001-07:00

"Love, like a river, will cut a new path whenever it meets an obstacles"
ps:hope you know what is right & what is wrong ..
u know how im feeling right now towards u ..
but i knew it means nothing to u ..


What is this feeling I have?
I seem to love you
But other times I seem to loathe you

I can't be without you
Or maybe just without anyone
I think about you all the time
But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice
And I would die to hear your laugh
But is this love or merely a lush ..

It seems that day by day i've started to realise something .. something really important to me .. something meaningful for me .. which gonna change my life,my world .. i've realised that those feelings that im feeling right now is for you & i just cant understand why it must be you .. im glad,im happy,but i know it wont happen .. i love you *** but i like **** ... its confusing .. but lets just wait and see whats going to happen next .. like what she says "maybe yours took the wrong turn & got lost" :) ps:i miss my retard girl ..although its hard to meet her now, shes still in my mind..looking at those picture we took in the past sometimes makes me laugh alone like a crazy girl no matter how angry i am towards her .. but nah,no matter what,no one can rebel this frienship of us ..
(will be planning for another outing soon before i went to bali)
I LOVE BALI!!!
BALI IS BEING LOVE BY ME!!

2010-03-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

I WANT THIS ICOLOUR THEME IN THE FUTURE

FOR MY WEDDING CEREMONY !

COMBINATION OF BLACK & PINK;)

Im gonna show mummy this pictures that i've upload:)

it makes me goes lah lah lah .. i love everything above but i love

the decoe MOST!!hahahha ...

it was held at the beach side at changi .. can i held my wedding ceremony

by the beach???hahahha ...

gonna asked daddy to pay half of the price for me in the future,hahahahha:)

2010-03-24T04:07:00.001-07:00

"eRfa,kau mcm makin bam bam jek?"safita said ..

is that true??hahahha .. i dont wanna be fat .. i didnt even
know that im gonna be bam bam .. i dont wanna
be like SAPITA RAZALI ...hahaahaha
joking joking :)
but i wanna be bam bam .. i think i ate alot at work cause
the amma there kept sental me with lots
of food cause she said "huh?u're 19,but why u soo small"
hahhaha ... im only 13 lah amma...hahahha...like real jek aku :)
pita lagi look young,mcm 5 years old,heheehhehe:)
cant wait for this friday ..
and btw,2 thumbs up for safita,cause,she change my blogskin
and i loike it alotzzzzzzzzzzz....
tHANK YOU KAKAK SAFITA BINTE RAZALI ..
and and and,kirim salam botak ok ...hahhahahaha ...
gue rindu banget sama kamu :)
pingin nya ngobrol ngobrol sama kamu sik ...
hhahahhahah ....kae kae ...till here

2010-03-23T23:20:00.000-07:00

Life is at its best moment right now:)

everything i did,makes me feel happy cause i aint had any

commitment..im happy with the way im leading it

now & im happy that i've got a bestfrend that

unfortunately.a retard girl:)

haahahaha ...although i knew that soon,we'll be apart,

i'll treasure those moment that im gonna spent

with my retard bestfrend NOW so that those memories

could be fresh in our mind although if fate makes us didnt meet up

for 1 year 2 year or even more.. nah nah nah ..:)

just cant wait to go bali for holiday cause to be sincere,i cant stay

in singapore cause singapore makes my life goes *******....

hahahhaha:)

i need to go somewhere peace where there are

no nuisanes things happen:)

I JUST LOVE THE WAY I AM LEADING MY LIFE NOW...

btw,i was browsing through fatimah mohsen weding galery and it makes

me wanna buy the wedding clothes,hahahahh...im going crazy

over her wedding clothes...and and and,the pelamin was damn soooo fucking hot

and pretty ... black and dark pik combination,really nice...

gonna tell mummy about this when i reached home,hahahha...

so that she will ask abg to save up his money

so that he can marry the girl and and and im gonna

choose for him the wedding clothes,hahahahah:)

2010-03-23T05:13:00.001-07:00

Went to work at around 8 plus am & 15 mins
later received a phone call from mama saying that both she
and daddy met with an accident ..
i was stunt ..i thought anything bad could happen
but luckily,they just injured themselves and as for
the another victim was
awarded to hospital and under observation ..met safita awhile
just now and aidil was there too..long time never met her and it seems
sooooo different:)
but overall,to be sincere,i need more time hanging out
with her cause got lots of stories to share ..its like a girls talk ..
but nah,no worries,friday will be having another outing again
with the crazy gang to Pasir ris to chill out ..

sometimes i think i dont get enough of you .. sometimes i wish
that i could make you mine .. and sometimes i wish you could
be the one that i've been waiting for boy ..but,i knew we cant make it ..
i knew it from the starting .. i hate people had the bad impression of you
cause i know you aint bad boy .. but just so you know,you're someone that i
treasure & respect the most cause you treat me good ..
but no one knows how long could this last long .. im scared ..
im scared of losing you,but i've learnt to let go
of someone that i really **** ....

2010-03-19T03:50:00.001-07:00

WILL NOT BE IN SINGAPORE TODAY ON THE 19 MARCH
AT 9PLUS 10 PM TILL ** MARCH ..
I JUST NEED SOME REFRESHMENT FOR MY LIFE ...
HOPE THAT I WOULD BE STAYING THERE LONG SO THAT
I WONT REMEMBER A SINGLE THING THAT HAPPEN IN SINGAPORE ..

2010-03-18T22:16:00.000-07:00

i'll sincerely let you go .. although deep down my heart

you meant alot to me .. i've learn how to let go

of someone that doesnt belongs to me ..

im sincere of letting you go ..

deep down my heart,theres many scars in it .. no one knew..

no one could feel it .. people can still see me laugh

but they aint gonna see the sadness inside ..

people kept asking,talking about relationship but i

could just listen to their beautiful life stories ..

& as for me,i guess,i'll just let it be like the way it should be ..

& theres only tears left for you ..

& to safita & aidil,i just wanna say sorry bout yesterday ..

im shagged with the situation right now ..

im sorrry cause i dint talked to you as pernormal yesterday ..

im sorry ... i did called you yesterday

but u were busy with ur boify & i feel upset a lil bit..

but im trying to learnt how to be far from

you cause i know we'll surely be apart from each other

starting next month and theres no listening ears for me anymore...

2010-03-18T04:03:00.001-07:00

..THE CONFESSION ..

sometimes,the one that u loves the MOST wont be yours ..
the one that makes your heart pump fast everytime
talking to them or everytime hearing their name being called
might also not be yours ..i do like you,i do adore you ***Y...
but the feelings just tells me that you belong to others ..
i really dont know why i have that feelings that actually u belong to other girls ..
really dont know why ...u're not handsome nor cute BUT,
you're a great weirdo person that i havent met before that
coincidently became someone really special in my life ..i might
not realised it in the past,but after a few months
talking to you nearly everyday,that feelings came like a flash..
the feelings that i've been putting aside for quiet sometime ..
all i knew is that,i like you..but i knew you had the opposite feelings ..

2010-03-16T09:42:00.001-07:00

THE FEELINGS TOWARDS THAT SOMEONE
THAT NO ONE KNOWS ..

sometimes,i think im guilty .. but sometimes i think that i doesnt even
know whether what am i doing now is right or wrong ..
i dont wanna to feel regret in the future .. neither do i wanna
feel regret of taking this decision .. but its just that the way they make
me feel are different .. tell me how am i supposed to make a decision
when i cant even think properly ...
yes i like you .. yes i adore you .. yes u're now apart of my life ..
but ,the heart keeps making me have this 50 50 feelings but in
the other hand,i like you,& i've started to adore you &
the rest in the future ..
im just too shagged today .. pissed off with all those stuffs ..
making a decision is not that easy ..
makes you wanna knock your head on the wall ..
but,when i think back,this is what they call life ...

2010-03-11T04:23:00.001-08:00

IM BORIIIINGGGGG!!!!!!&& IM SLEEPY...BUT BUT...
WHEN I SAW SAFIA TAGGED ME,I LAUGH
LIKE HELL,hahahhahahaha;)

2010-03-10T03:49:00.000-08:00

when to meet safia just now after work..talked,laugh,giggle,
jokes around..hahaha..&&& "can i have your number?make friend only"
hahahaha..got this one middle age guy asked for safita number ;)
hahahhaha..."you both siblings??"
we answered:"ya,we are siblings..
"whos the eldest?"
we answered:"she is the eldest(pointing to safita)& im the yougest"..
hahhahhaha..just cant imagine how could a middle aged man
wanna make friend with us,hahahha...
many things happen today..good things or bad things??
hmmmm...bad things happen today..its like i've made a small mistake
but u act as if i made a BIG mistake..im not a robot..u should understand me too..
im tired..haiya..& now,u wanna revenged back,
its fine with me..im ok with it;)
will be meeing safita AGAIN today & reall cant wait for tomorow outing;)

2010-03-08T06:47:00.001-08:00

WHAT YOU HAD DONE TO ME IN THE

PAST IS IT NOT ENOUGH!!!HOW YOU DUMPED ME
& HOW I BEG YOU LIKE A BEGGAR
NOT TO END OUR RELATIONSHIP,ISNT IT
NOT ENOUGH AZREE!!!!!!!!!!!!YOU MADE ME CRY AGAIN..
IS THAT YOUR HOBBY MAKING MY LIFE MISERABLE!PLEASE FUCKED
OFF FROM MY LIFE..I DONT WANNA BE A BEGGAR THAT
BEG YOU AGAIN TO LOVE ME!!SO GET AWAY FROM ME PLZ!!!!!!!!

2010-03-07T21:21:00.000-08:00

2010 is a very dificult year for me..god is giving me

a hard time & he's asking me to make

a wise decision in choosing..haiyo..headache..in the other hand,

i dont wanna let you down,but in the other hand,u're

making my life difficult..im confused with myself this

few days..wanna give pita a call but shes having her exams this week..

wanna talk to era bout it but shes still a kid..

to whom should i turn too..i know that the decision is in my

hand but to be sincere,i've made my decision already

but its just that i cant bear to ignore you..just cant bear..

if only u knew how i feel right now..i know i cant turn back the time

but plz...stop disturbing my life again..i've threw away all our past memories..

plz azree,plz..im happy with my life right now..

u're attach with other girls now..so plz dont disturb me anymore..

plzzzzzzzzzzzz...im begging u...plzzzzzzzzzz

2010-03-04T04:02:00.001-08:00

anonymous:hows your day today efa?
me:my day??ermm..its sucks!alot of work to do kau tau

wth..can still ask some more hows my day padahal da tau
that my day today was suckz..!theres a lot of things to do..
print worksheets,bath the students,make some milk for the baby's,
and tap2 them to sleep..damn tired..and furthermore,
all my body aches cause of PLAYING ROLLER BLADE
the previous day..my legs was like soooooo cramp just now..my eyes was like
sotong just now..and overall,it makes me feels shagged!
almost knocked my head on my desk cause i nearly falls
asleep..damn sleepy..didnt get enough sleep
this few days cause of some reasons..arghhh!!!cause of that reason,
i didnt get an enough and perfect sleep..
ven if i sleep,that **** keeps on waking me up..and cause of that,
i've stayed up till 7 plus am..haiya..
i guess i need to stop all this shits sooo that i can get enough sleep..
cannot tahan ..always slept at work place..tiiring tiring life..
will be going to bali in 2 weeks plus time..boring,cause we went holiday
alot of time this year..guess till here i'll update today
cause theres sttill this thing i need to do for my classroom...nites people;)

2010-03-03T02:53:00.001-08:00

2nd march..is the MOST exciting and the MOST memorable
outing ever in life..;)
reasons:its because,this outing shows how burok we all
looks like when each & everyone of us felt down
during roller-blading session;)
we look lame,we look funny,we look like an idiot
but,we look happy cause its like this time round,everyone was there..
scroll down to look at the pictures that was taken yesterday;)

reached home around 11pm..was damn tired..
hahaha..i need to tell u people about this one thing
regarding sapita;)
while i was playing the roller-blade with yat,era and adam,we kept
hearing her voice shouting like more than 10
times,hahahah...she makes everyone laugh,heehehhe...
& & &,guess what,my intension was to help her
skate but then,biler nak dekat jatoh,guess what she pulled..
i dont mind if she pulled my clothes..BUT....instead of pulling my clothes,
she grabbed my BREAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!do u know how painful it is BABI!!!!!!
hahahahhahaha..i was half naked with my roller blades on;)
can u just imagine that,HALF NAKED MEN,hhahahahhaha....
but luckily,i managed to cover it & luckily
at that moment,there was no one around..next time round,aku tak tau kau nak grab
aper pulak,hahahaha...but overall it was fun..;)
they make my day

2010-02-28T21:27:00.000-08:00

"When you left, I lost a part of me"

do you remember..the day u left me,the day you dumb me,the day

when you shattered all our dreams away & the day when

you cant realised that actually,u've hurt someone

that TREASURE you..do you remember??or are you acting to not

remember a single thing??

i lost apart of me when you left me..& now,why do u appear back

i my life after u left me without reasons??why why why & why???

My heart was taken by you, broken by you, and now it is

shattered in pieces because of you. .

have you know that??

and yet you still have the guts to msged and looked for me in

facebook..ashamed of you azree..you are attached now

but you are the one who cant accept the fact that u're attached with OTHER

girl,not me..u kept saying about our past stories yesterday,what was your

motive??just so u know,no matter how hard u tried to be back with me,

i WONT ACCEPT YOU back..for me,i've thrown u far away from my life,

for me u're just my past stories although till now i cant forget you..

but if you were to ask me whether do i still have any feelings for you,i'll surely say "NO"..

im sorry but i have to say goodbye..feel how i feel...

2010-02-24T04:23:00.000-08:00

i miss my daily routine everyday..webcam..with ****...
but now,im moving on..u're just my frend lor..hahaha...i dont even
feel lost or losing apart of my life...nope...i dont even feel that;)
sorry but thats the fact..
meet safita just now after work and coincidently,nurul
is at home so we WALKED to her blk..penat tao nurul..but overall,
fun kan kan kan pita;)
although we only met for a few minutes,,hahhaha..
next outing,i guess will be on next wednesday..PLAY KITES BABEY!!!!
hahahha...surely fun want...friday is just around the corner..
looking forward to get my pay this week;)
&&& can go blanja era...;)
ok2..im tired already...wanna go bobok...nitez everyone..
will be update soon..& btw,the teacher course & diploma in
teaching will be held at orchard...SO FAR LIAU...and i hope
it ends soon:) nites everyone...

2010-02-22T04:11:00.001-08:00

let me say this for the last time..i wont tell anyone including u,my small sis
about who will be my closest guy frend..im aint no jealous ok..
u knew im closed with this cyber guy frend of mine but yet u can still
like add him up & flirt around..u said that hes gatal..
but y must u add him up when u already knew that im closed with him..why??
u did this a lot of time already but i can still keep my mouth shut..
& sincerely,thats not good enough of u..
yes im sad..im sad because i just cant imagine u flirting around..
theres already someone that likes u,wat more
do u want??u wanna be famous is it??if thats the case,just take each
and everyone of my guy frend..just go flirt with them ok..im sick and tired off
giving in to u since u're the smallest in the family...
just kept on flirting with him,i wont die,but i knew,1 day u'll realised
that actually u're disturbing my good rlationship/frendship
with someone that are closed too me...im just too dissapointed in you..
i just wanna be alone,im sorry..

2010-02-21T04:00:00.001-08:00

she realises that that life is for living-but it always helps
if theres an angel watching over you.

life would be great if theres an angel watching over you..cause
you'll feel comfort..but,unfortunately,angels doesnt exist..
how i wish angels exist..cause life will be filled with hapiness & sadness
wont exist..

2010-02-19T23:09:00.001-08:00

once i walked,i wont look back again..i wont look back again to
my past life BUT you made me wanna turn back to my past life
that RUINED my whole life..remember what happen 3 years back..
YOU made me really wanna be bad again & mix with the bad companies..
please stop doing all this fucking nonsense to me..
let me lead my life ALL BY MYSELF..i knew what im doing..i knew what
is bad & what is wrong..i've told u im not THE EFA THAT U'VE KNOWN BEWFORE..
i've change..cant u just accept the fact that I'VE CHANGE..i've change for the better
BUT YOU insist that when i mix with my ONE & ONLY BESTFREND,
i became worst..what shit are talking about!!
the reason for me becoming like this is BECAUSE OF YOU!but u just dont
realised it..SHES the one that gave me advices,SHES the one that always
will be there for me but y cant u just accept the fact..!u even dare to say things like
"klau efa ajak klua,ckp taknak"...what is this...im working on mon-fri...
friday night we went back jb till sun and mon started working again..
do u think i have a plenty of time to spent with my frend????!!!
thats the reason y i wanna went out after i came back from werk...isnt that goos enough!!
what more do u want?????have i ever said that i wanna went home at 12pm!
no!i didnt!you shud appreciate that..i need to went out like others too..
i need a guy frend too..i need to be myself too but WHY MUST
YOU STOPPED ME FROM DOING ALL THIS STUFF
ALTHOUGH U KNEW I DIDNT MIX WITH THE BAD COMPANIES ANIMORE!!

Im asking u why,why,why!!!u making me insane...u making me stress..
i cant bear it animore..u make me wanna be far from u..
u are the one who force me to do all the bad stuff..ur attitude really
makes me hate u..please..i need to be what im suppose to be..
its difficult if u dont wanna have a single trust of me that i've really
change into a better ones..i need a guy frend too to talk at night but u
kept asking me to goooooooo sleeeep...u making me like a prisoner..
more worse that a prisoner..u make me cry all alone in this world...i make me
have many problems in life..i still remember the phrase that u've ever said
to me that really hurts my feelings for the whole of life
by saying that u regret having me in this world..only SHE,MY ONE & ONLY
BESTIES KNEW all bout my ups and down..
not u..Im sorry MUMMY,u ruined my life...thats the fact..
im just sorry if i'll be far with u 1 day..im sorry,i didnt meant to,but....
u're really treating me like a prisoner..im sorry...im sorry...for letting
u giving birth to me in this world...i know u regret having me in this world...
im so sorry for being ur daughter,,,i'll be a stranger to u starting from now
onwards...

2010-02-19T06:48:00.001-08:00

WHAT IF I SAY THAT IM IN LOVE??

TO BE CONTINUED..

2010-02-19T06:23:00.001-08:00

im back from my 5 days holidays..its fun caused its like finally
i get to feel a complete family holiday..each and everyone of the family
was there..full of love from each other..hahaha...didnt get to buy anything
for the couples,pita & panjang;)
owh ya,and not to forget,happy belated 3 monthsary to u guys..
yesterday was their anniversary..went to meet thwm after work..
i decided to meet them at 5.30 at bus stop but then,walauwei,,
they were sooo late..OMG..and pitaa didnt went to school yesterday and she
didnt even tell me,sempat beli bubble tea lagi & aidil was there too..
boleh ketawe lagi..haha..bukan nak panggil tao,they kept on
standing there looking at me,WTH..hahaha...
went bedok to meet andy grim..actually supposed to meet him at 6.30 but
i was late,i reached there around 6.50 nearly 7pm..cause the journey was far..
& once i reached bedok,i like jakon,cause its been 3 years plus i didnt step
my feet into geylang..now then i realised not all bedok
peeps are bad..
first impression when she saw andy:
she was shocked..cause she thought that it
would be awkward..she waited for him nearly 10 minutes & finally she saw
him walking towards her..there was an apek talking shits to her..she was
scared but then its like finally,he came down at the right time..is it awkward?
yes it is..she feels awkward that she went silence..he was staring at her..looking
deep into the eyes..she was shy..she was scared..she was uncomfortable..
but she stills put up her best smile infront of him..after about 10 mins of
silence,finally they talked as a pernormal..she realised that hes friendly..
they went to buy some drinks..he accompanied her..we became a lil bit
closer..the cap of the mineral water was so tight..he help her open..hes
caring,possessive & friendly..there were many cats coming towards her..he
didnt knew that she was afraid of cats..he can still call the catss to come nearer to him..
she ran away..shes been standing for like 5 mins and finally he stand beside her..
he help her to take her water and bag and they sat other place..his
friend was friendly but very scray..a friend of him accidentally kick
a ball towards her,almost hit her head..he was so possessive that he
said"kau nak mati ape" while covering my head..:)
andy grim,i dont know wat to say but sincerely,i'll treausre u as
a cyber world friend of mine..thanks for everything..im happy knowing u..
thanks too ur friend too cause he make feels comfortable too..
thnaks soo much..we'll meet up soon:)

2010-02-09T23:34:00.000-08:00

Im soooo bored..i did nothing today ..woke up at 11am
today,bath,gave my tortoise food & went off
to fetch my sis from school then went POSB ..reached home around 10 mins ago
& now me and family is watching this new malay
movie named "SANTAU" ...
they say that its a very scary movie .. hope it wont be that scary ..
to pita,online mlm ok,challenge solitaire:)
hope u lost ...hahaha...see ya soon..

2010-02-09T05:28:00.001-08:00

I really don't think that anyone in this world knows the real me. My closest friends know me better than anyone else, but I don't think I’ve ever let certain sides of me come out around anyone except myself. I keep some feelings hidden because no one would understand, and even if they did understand, there wouldn't be anything that anyone could do to make the feelings disappear.

Worry about your character,
not your reputation because
your character is who you `
are & your reputation is
what people think you are

I'm not perfect, I never tried to be. I've made mistakes. I've taken the easy way out. I've lied. I've hidden the truth so many times from so many people. I've hurt people, and I've even done it on purpose. I've left people behind.I've said things that I didn't mean. I'm no better than anyone, anywhere. I'm human. I have faults, and I'm not afraid to admit that. I want to change, but I won't. Because that's what we do. That's what we've always done. We list our faults like a grocery list, and we move on, expecting everything to somehow change itself. It never will. I will never change. I will never be perfect. I will always make mistakes. I'll, more often than not, take the easy way out. I will lie, hide the truth, hurt people, leave people behind,and say things I don't mean for the rest of my life.

2010-02-09T01:59:00.001-08:00

Met safita today ..shes just right infront of me now :)
hahahah ...she came here around 1 plus just now & till
now shes still hyper ...hahahah...
seriously sey:)
we played solitaire game inside the msn although she
was just infront of me & guessed what..
i lost & again,she wins..shes the champion for everything..
hahahah ...dont kembang ah ita:)
march,her parents will be going to jakarta..maybe she might
not be following her parents so i thought,might as well
she sleep my house..more fun cause march
she wont be schooling,1 month holiday,gerek kape...
will be planning for another outing togather with the ayam
again if im not wrong..this time we wont be
playing bowling & pool or karaoke again..we'll try something new..
thought of going sentosa..it will surely be fun ...
to aidil dzulkarnaim "kau better stop it with aop2 thing ok"...hahhaaha...
joking2..tapi kau just wait and see,aku mesti kacau kau rabak
giler ..hahaha..sorry safita,hahhaa...but i
have too:)

2010-02-07T09:28:00.001-08:00

just reached home about an hour ago ..its like finally,
we've found the pillow that we want at carrefour ..
mama bought 6 pillow altogather:)
been staying at jb since last friday ..so tiring cause the whole
family was helping each other to hang the curtain that mama brought
from s'pore due to theres none a single curtain that was hang
on our house in jb..guess what makes us tired ...
we had to climb the window in order to hang the curtain caused our window
is damn sooooooooo high ... its not like singapore ...&&& the cutain that mama
brought doesnt fit the window there ..hahahah ... it was weird if u could actually
see how it looks like,hhahaha ...wont be working tomorow
caused i took a week off .. hahahah ..finally i could sleep & wake up around
3 or 4pm:)
& owh ya,mama will be starting working tomorow from 11am to 8pm ..
good luck ya mama:)
will be going to KL soon ..4 more days to go ..
& i feels happy cause its like finally i get to feel the money that i
earn all by myself..it feels great when u get to feel that money
that u earn ALL BY URSELF ..really feels glad:)
& i will surely proved to everyone out there including aunt,uncles &
cousins that i can be independent ..

2010-02-04T04:36:00.001-08:00

Everyone is starting working already .. the whole family except for era ..

mama will be starting working soon ...
abg is now staying in jb for his own bussiness .. while era,
will be at home all alone like this movie
named "home alone":)
tomorow night will be going back to jb .. gonna arranged all the
furnitures in my room .. gonna decide what to put &
what to buy .. later around 10 plus
gonna lepak with abg lili .. long time never lepak with him .. hahahah ...
& owh ya,chinese new year is around the corner .. cant wait
to go for holiday .. as for parents,on the march they will go
for another holiday,they will be going for honeymoon at bali lor ... hahahah ...
my dream place..its a nice place :)
k then,till here im gonna update my post ... see ya soon ...
many upcoming stories ;)

2010-02-03T04:51:00.000-08:00

Met safita at 5 plus pm just now straight after work ..
although i feels tired,i still made it to meet that retard pompan ..
aidil dzulkarnaIM today got a lil bit mood swing ..
hahahah ... went to accompany safita to ubi driving centre due to i pity
her waiting alone there for her boifriend aidil dzulkarnaIM
to finish prac motor ... say thanks to me safita cause im being soooo good
today,hahahahha ... i even blanja her drinks there,hahahah ...

"alah,aku baru lambat 2 kali je ..dier lambat banyak kali
from the first time aku know him":)
hahahahah ... she & her boifrend like to fight over a small matter,hahahah ..
like small kids like that,hehehe ...

but overall,alhough its just a short period of time meeting the both of them,
i do feels glad ..to aidil dzulkarnaIM,i wish u pass ur prac motor,hahahah ...
tapi aku rase kau fail,hehe:)
i feels sooo happy cause friday is coming ... wanna know why???
cause its a rest day for me,friday afternoon,saturday & sunday ...
wah,can rest my body for the whole 3 days ...:)

2010-02-02T03:14:00.000-08:00

i bought a new "ray ban" shades last saturday ..
will be wearing this next week friday
duwing our trip to KL

my favourite student .. named krystal :)

my favourite hardcore student :)

Those crazy students of mine:)
they brighten up my days no matter how sturborn they are ..
No matter how hyper-active they are,
i still love them lots with all my heart ..
student student,teacher efa loves you all lots ok ok:)
hahahhaha:)
sometimes they make me angry but at the same time
they do make me laugh .. my days are filled
with happiness .. thanks to u kids:)

2010-02-01T05:35:00.000-08:00

Ends my job at 5pm just now .. i was so sleepy that i took
a cab home & the extra charge is $2.10 .. the taxi driver charged me
$9.40 and its too expensive cause the journey is only from Jalan kayu
to Hougang .. the taxi driver purposely drived slowly like a tortise ..
Reached home at about 5.40pm .. once i've reached home,i throw my bag
aside & pampered my body on my bed .. i was damn sleepy .. i slept for 3 hours ..
woke up cause i heard someone shouting "kakak bangon mandi" ...
i was shocked ... i thought got tsunami or what ..tomorow will be starting working
at 9am till 5pm .. will be meeting safita this wednesday at dedap rd ..

owh ya,to be sincere,i love my students alots.. they are soooo cute
and adorable .. there were 3 of them ... aged 2 years ..
jordan is the intellengent one among them .. he's closed to me ..
cause i pampered him lots .. i gave him toys during the "story telling lesson" ..
they loves to eat ... they loves to play ..
& i enjoy sleeping with jordan the baby .. he didnt even make my
life miserable cause that baby is sooooo independent .. he does
everything by himself ..as for drescel, hes soooo talkative .. he's
2 years old too .. he loves to play hide and seek under the table ..
but drescel loves to mrajok & he will surely started crying when we took
the toys away from him,& that will surely makes me tired cause
he will surely asked me to carry him go nearer to the fan and say "na na na na"

and laugh like a crazy lil baby ..

its a really nice job .. i love it sooo much BUT ,its tooo tiring ...
my body aches alots ...

2010-01-31T09:14:00.001-08:00

I PROMISE YOU NUR SAFITA BINTE RAZALI,
I,ERFARHANAH,WONT NEGLECT OUR FRIENDSHIP NO MATTER
HOW BUSY I AM WITH MY JOB & CAREER ..

just came back from jb.. tomorow will be working at 9am
till 6pm .. its a 9 hour working per day ..
although i feel tired right now & feels lazy to start working tomorow,
im putting all my lazyness aside coz i wanna earn
some penny this month so that i could buy some nice stuff
to decorate my new room ..

to nur safita:
Before anything happens & before i heard any complaints from u,
i erfarhanah wanna say sorry if i could'nt spent most of my time with u
starting tomorow.. i wanna say sorry if i cant calls u that often ..
i wanna say sorry if i couldnt be ur listening ears that often
like i used to be .. i wanna say sorry if i cant be by ur side when
aidil had already serve his NS ..but nur safita,believe me,
no matter how busy i am with my job that links to my career,i will always
be there for u,i will still be ur listening ears no matter how busy i am
& how tired i am ..hold my words
"i wont neglect our friendship" ...u're my bestfrend,u're my sister,u're my listening ears..

yours sincerely:Erfarhanah

2010-01-30T04:17:00.000-08:00

THE DAY WE WENT KARAOKE AT GRANDLINK
WITH THE A Y A M ..

we waited for the boys for like more than 30 mins padahal
ckp anothere 15 mins sampai,tipu banyak ,hahaha ..
the outing was outrageously fun:)

we sang alot of songs there & got this one moment when
the song "i believe i can fly"
started,safita was like not singing it & atlast i have to sing that slow giler song..
pantat ah safita ..
aidil:u nyanyi ah
safita:i kan da cakap i taknak nyanyi

ala,padahal,kadang2 aku dengah kau nyanyi lagu
english ok pita,hahahha...
k3...gotta go now,going back to jb ...:)

2010-01-30T00:07:00.001-08:00

A BRAND NEW HOUSE WITH A BRAND NEW LIFE
AND WITH A BRAND NEW FAMILY ...

The interior of the house before renovation

washing the store room while playing with the
water at the same time ..

Erra:camera women of the day

papa washing the back of the house

i was short that i couldnt reached the top of the window

a brand new family :)

mama cleaning the guest bathroom

the gay boy ..

gay boy number 2 ..

yesterday,was the first time we slept in our house at jb ..
it was a tiring day .. i swear ..
everyone was like working sooo hard to wash the hold house ..
the whole house was sooo damn wet cause we
poured alot of water+sabon on the floor
& we were like scrubbing the floor like a cinderella,hahahaha ...
and my clothes were all wet cause
abg wawan purposely sabotage me,mama and the rest
with water .. it was fun .. it was tiring ..
but yet ,we made it through ..although the interior of the house blom
lagi fully renovated,we still decided to wash the whole house ..
overall it was fun &
i LOVE the toilet loooootzzzzzz:)

2010-01-25T23:21:00.001-08:00

Early morning ... I was damn happy ... reasons ??
Its because i've finally get a job ..
A job that i really want since a decade ago ..
Finally i've got to be a teacher ...Early childhood teacher ...
Its my ambition since i was small ..
Owh god ,thanks sooooo much coz all this while u've been hearing to my prayers ..
but the thing is that , the neighbour is willing to sponsore me
a diploma in early childhood teacher ..
im scared .. its like a 50% 50% decision ...
its like i have to make the right decision .. but if i were to accept this
offer ,i wont neglect it ..
thanks god .. to safita ,i knew u would be an early childhood teacher sooner or later ..
believe me:)
will be going to jb today night as we have to collect
the keys to our new house there :)

2010-01-24T22:16:00.000-08:00

2010 ... make my life miserble .. seriously .. i hate this year ...
this year,many accuses that we heard from
many different type of people ..accuses towards our family,siblings & parents ...
how would you feel ..
& some of those accuses we made by our own family members(cousins) ..
it hurts in the heart to hear that accused ..
is my family that bad ???
even though my family always went out at night & lepak at
kedai kopi till 3 or 4 am,that doesnt mean that
our family had a bad reputation ...am i right ...
SO WHAT if my family likes to came back home late ... SO WHATt if my mum dont even
cook at home ... SO WHAT if my family likes
to hang out here & there ... SO WHAT!!!
we are not bad people ok.. its just that we get used to that environment ok..
it doesnt even matter if my mum cook or not
cause my family doesnt even like to eat at home ...so stop talking
bout my family .. u people just dont know whats the meaning of
"HAPPY FAMILY"...
no matter how our family like to lepak,the bonding of
love between our family is strong .. im glad to have an open minded family..
im glad to god .. so plz...get out of our life ...
lead ur own life ok ...

Representing the 2 sister ... erfa & erra ..
We are sibling but we dont have the same attitude .. seriously ...
but for sure ,when this two combined togather,
the became the craziest sister EVER in the whole wide world ..
no matter what u girls talk bad bout my sister,
i still love her the way she is ...
Okae2 .. till here ... not much to say today ...:)

2010-01-21T02:40:00.001-08:00

WE ARE BOTH DIFFERENT IN MANY WAYS ..
WE ARE BOTH WALKING ON THE DIFFERENT PATHMENT ..
BUT YET,WE COLLIDE TOGATHER IN
THOSE CYBER WORLD
& U BECAME A
CLOSE GUY FREND OF MINE ,IGNORING
THOSE DIFFERENCES IN OUR LIFE ..

I dont wanna take a step back ..
But im running on emptiness ..
We're just no longer on the same track ..
And its killing me in many ways ..
You take me in,shut me out,you're breaking me down ..
Its all misleading,you keep me bleeding ..
Its like im burning out ... burning out ..

2010-01-19T03:52:00.001-08:00

11 more days,we'll be staying at this house above .. lawa tak ??
for me ,ok lah .. its at JB,setia tropika .. actually its nice ..
cumer theres nothing inside the house .. tak fully furnished,so family decided to
paint the the room,make a small garden outside & make a balcony outside
the bedroom at the 2nd storey ..
feel happy that we found this house .. its secure .. full of guards ..
its like singapore already .. its only that we havent had the time yet to make
new friends there ..

And this one above,is our dream house .. its at the same place,setia tropika ...just
1km far from our place but its located at the same location ..
family decided to bought this house after we feel that we can adapt with the environment there ..
its soooo big ... i love it ... hahahaah ...
family keeps having the intention of buying this house but NOT now plz
cause i need to adapt to the environment over there ..
& furthermore, i still need my retard friend here ...

2010-01-18T06:40:00.000-08:00

HAPPY SECOND ANNIVERSARY TO THIS TWO BESTIES OF MINE ;)
she made a good choice of wanting to be togather with this guy
named AIDIL DZULKARNAIN ..
both have the same attitude ... both are INSANE ... both are CHILDISH ..
both are LAME ...both are GOOD FREND OF MINE ...
hahahhaahha ...may allah bless u guys ok ...
to safita:mark this date as a memorable day of yours
to aidil:make this day as your meaningful moment ever in life..

much love from :Erfarhanah

2010-01-17T23:24:00.001-08:00

Its been a quite long time didnt update my blog ... life been miserable lately ..
Now then i realised that its hard to search for a job..
feeling like crying but its useless ..guess what ,i went for an interview today morning ..
im the first person to arrive there .. 10 mins later,a chinese guy,same aged as me,came ..
after waited for about 20 mins ,the supervisor called for the chinese guy first!!!
WTF SIA!!!!RACIST BABI !!!!frustated ..
klau seme keje pilih ciner,abeh s'pore nak jadi aper siak..bodoh
punye goverment ... having headache right now...arghhh!!!
& lately,never meet the retard girl .. feels like putting everything aside & stay
at JB for time being ..more peace ..singapore racist!!

Erra & abdi happily eating ..

This group name above is "MENTARI"...hahahaha ...
dorang semangat giler sampai dapat last position in all the games...hahhaha

Really miss those time when we were having our WAW trip at port dickson..
we met new friends..& we also make friends with other people..
it was so fun that at the end of the trip,
u'll surely feel sad cause each & everyone of us have to go our own way ..
but overall,BEST GILER...hahahah ... looking forwars for another
WAW trip ;)

2010-01-05T11:08:00.001-08:00

Life been soooo difficult for me this few weeks .. stop saying
that im jealous cause i damn fucking dont care
about u nor ur so called boyfriend ..IM NOT EVEN JEALOUS
cause his not my type .. u should know that small sis era ..
so stop saying that word .. so what if i dont have a boyfriend????
is that a big deal to u, mother & era????i dont even care ..
cause im happy right now not being in any relationship ..
im happy that i dont have any commitment .. im happy that i've started
to have lots of msn friend .. so,whats the use of having a boyfrend ???
see ... in my mind right now,having a boyfriend is not my first priority ..
my first priority is to work hard & get my dream car .. thats all ...
MONEY ..MONEY ... MONEY..& MONEY ...
thats the only thing that is in my mind .. for me searching for a boyfriend
is NOT IMPORTANT mum ..cause,true love, will comes by itself
no matter in what way we'll meet them .. so just wait & see
cause i believe ,i will get a much more better one:)

2010-01-04T22:06:00.001-08:00

Atok was admitted to tan tock seng hospital last saturday ..
he ran away from home ,& all of us
were searching for him like hell ..so me & mama decided to make a phone call to
tan tock seng hospital coz nenek told us that all his medical
file gone missing .. & guess what ..
the nurse told us that a patient by the name of jaafar was admitted to the hospital since
9am .. & we called the tan tock seng hospital at 4 pm ..
what a long time .. & nowadays ,its difficult to meet patient at the hospital coz
on;y 4 people were allowed to go up to the ward .. then u have to used those yellow stickers
& paste it on ur clothes ,& they have to put something invisible on your hand
before the cisco police escort you till the lift .. stupid right ,arghhhh!!!!
what if someone dying ??? will u need to do all that stuff !!
stupid hospital ..

pictures was taken during our trip to port dickson ..
its a family trip .. i love the apartment there .. thought of riding the banana boat
but too bad ,we arrived late .. the banana boat can only be ride
in the morning ..but nah ,its ok ...
really do enjoy those trip with those cuzzins & aunties :]

2010-01-01T08:18:00.001-08:00

Its been a tiring day fer me today & yesterday ..damn tired ..
never thought that it would be that big amount of people coming to my house ..
its about nearly 80+ people from the guy side including
our side ..& the surrounding here is like " pasa malam " ....
&&&& 2010,i've got a new family member!!!:)
i got a new uncle ..atlast my aunty gets married to a guy
that loves her with his full soul ..sooooo handsome ...
shes sooo lucky:)
hahahhhaa ....to sarpita ,hows ur sister engagement day today ???
kecoh kan rumah ....:) hahahaha
confirm banyak gamba kau nak upload ...
as for me ,i'll be uploading all the pics as soon as possible ...:)

2009-12-30T04:12:00.000-08:00

i wanna buy yellow nail polish can can can ???
that colour is sooo tempting..
ever saw thi girl used a yellow nail polish on her nails..
its like soooo nice...i tried red,brown,black,white,pink and
blue colour nail polish but i dont like them ..
i want yellow jugak ..but dont know what brand of nail polish is the best..
my nail is my everything ..i need to put some colours on it ..
see how first lah ,if i got the time ,then i'll surely buy the yellow colour nail polish..

&&&& can i put some diamonds on my nails???
hahahhaha ...i wish theres such thing in this world ..:)

2009-12-29T07:02:00.001-08:00

When those two meet ..everything goes up side down ..
hahahha ..see how close we're ..
i really wish she like those band that we bought for her at KL ..
reasons for buying that for her ??its because ,me & era was thinking how should we
show our apology for not going swimming with her ..so,we saw this one stall ,
full of bands ..& we decided to buy her that :)

his 1st surprise event for a girl named "AIRA"

The moment we shouted his named ,he came down from the 2nd storey
& brought along the present that he wanna gave erra..

this is her reaction once she saw him

a girl from IMH ,were also invited to the belated
birthday surprise :)

the newly couples,hahahah:)

L.A babey!!!

those pictures that was taken yesterday ...

2009-12-28T20:45:00.001-08:00

MY DREAM CAR ..just give me 2 more years to work hard
& i'll surely make this car mine ..

2009-12-28T20:25:00.000-08:00

yesterday went back home around 9+ nearly 10 pm ..

had a small belated birthday celebration with safita,aidil,wanshah & erra ..
its a surprised belated birhday celebration among us ..
although it was raining heavily yesterday ,wanshah ,erra so called boyfriend ,managed
to continue with those surprises that he himself plan ..:)
hahahaaha ..as usual ,erra was shocked to see him there cause he told erra tht hes going out with his cousinz ..
but happiness can be seen in her face although they are shy to talked to each other ..
theres this incident that happened yesterday & i wont forget it
till the rest of my life ..for the 1st time in my life ,safita decided to came out with this idea ,
WHO BURPS THE MOST,WINS ...
although it makes u wanna vomit burping alot of time ,actually its fun :)
&&& yesterday ,someone felt down the slide like ..
& ITS ME ...really do enjoyed yesterday event ..pictures will upload soon
as its still with safita peng :)

2009-12-27T20:45:00.001-08:00

life been great..& tiring too..went to port dickson again last friday but
this time,its a family trip..but sincerely,the trip was not fun at all..
on that day too,abg got a prospect at kluang & my family took nearly 3 hours
to find that place & finally we achieved..& guessed what...
that pak cik told us that actually,kluang is just nearby JB but we took the long cut &
thats the reason why we took nearly 3 hours..
my butt was like sooooo pain sitting inside the car for like nearly 3 hours ..
its sooooo damn tiring but i was soooooo happy cause that pak cik was sooo urge
to sign up to be apart of winners 4life member..:)
& it took us about an hour to prospect this pak cik..& finally we reached port dickson
late while the rest of my aunty & cousins had already reached there 3 hours earlier..
but sadly,i get to know that banana boat cumer ader
pagi jek..:(
seriously,at that moment i feel down..shit right...
& overall,the trip was ok ok lah..

2009-12-22T09:31:00.000-08:00

as usually,im the LAST one who update those picture below that
was taken 2 weeks ago while the rest had already
update those pictures..got no much thing to update today,so i guess,
will be continue updating my blog tomorow or some other day..

2009-12-17T01:24:00.000-08:00

I EXTREMELY HAD FUN YESTERDAY WITH THOSE 2 SISTER,
ERRA & SAFITA..WE REALLY ENJOY OUR DAY YESTERDAY..
we went to east coast cause we thought of renting
bicycles there but unfortunately,its raining heavily there & we cancelled
our plan..erra so called boyfreind or close friend
also follow us but he waited for us there for like about 1 hour plus..
wansyah,thats erra so called close friend name..he bring along his
adik sdare & friend along..instead of renting bicycle,we all decide
to play bowling & as usually,girl power..we won & they lose..hahahha..too bad..
& for the first time "peng" scored 100..she was like sooo
damn happy over a small thing,hahaha...
we sat along the beach & played the CONCENTRATIONA GAME..so funny..
hahaha...& lastly we went to play pool,& the funny thing is that,my team
won & "peng " team lose..headed back home at around 7pm..
reached hougant at 7+pm & "peng" came
out with this idea of making a small advance b'day celebration for erra ..
& peng bought her a small piece of cake with a candle..hahaha..
that was the sweet moment of all yesterday..& guess what,peng was so hungry
that she ate the candle too...hahahaha...that was accidentally..
but funny...her cake was broken into two and the P**NAT drop off too,hahahah...
pictures that we took yesterday will be post a.s.a.p cause those pictures
are with safita..she went to batam & tomorow,im going to port dickson..
so wont be meeting safita till next tuesday..&&&
next week outing is on friday..that is what ur boifriend told erra..
& just so u know safita,next week outing u'll surely
be happy cause aidil wanna bring us go swimming at jurong..hahaha...
hope u'll be happy to read my post about next week outing..
see ya soon ok..:)

2009-12-15T09:40:00.000-08:00

have u ever heard about couples who was force to act as if they really looks like a newly wed???its weird but it turns out to be like a real newly wed..

2009-12-12T23:07:00.000-08:00

i heard this song at ita blog..&&& i like this song alots...ita download kan k k k..
thank you..sorry i stole ur song,hahaha...kater erfa:)

2009-12-11T03:57:00.001-08:00

Really miss those hair colour of mine..those time when
we created our own dance group..
it was fun having a dance group with those girls..but finally,these group
of us spilt..but nah,its ok..atleast we had fun at that moment dancing
on the dancefloor:)

2009-12-10T10:39:00.000-08:00

SHE WANNA BELIEVE IN EVERYTHING
THAT HE SAY,CAUSE IT SOUNDS SOO
GOOD..

2009-12-10T10:21:00.000-08:00

my childhood friend..

she feels happy this few days..she just love how shes leading her
life at this moment..although theres many things that kept
disturbing her mind,she still smiles when she met her laughing gas,NUR SAFITA..
but,she feels shagged today..she gets scolding from her mum..
she just cant understand what actually her mums want..
her mums always want the best for her in life but her mum
doesnt even know that her decision is making her daughter upset of her..
she needs someone to talk too,she needs someone to went out with,she needs someone
to talk too at night...she needs this things...cause shes been avoiding this thing
for 4 months ago..recently,she gets to get in contact with
her childhood friend..it was coincidence..
she was happy cause she never thought that this would happen..meaning,,she
was happy because atlast she got someone to talk too,
atlast she got someone to went out with,but she treats him as a FRIEND only..
but,her mum gets her wrong..her mum was scared that she would be hurt again..
but she's really lonely..& her childhood friend that that contact her recently
was her brother bestfriend in ITE..but shes happy everytime she gets to talk
with her childhood friend..

and that "SHE" refers to "ERFARHANAH"
which is "ME"...

2009-12-10T06:15:00.000-08:00

nur safita here.
and again im invading other people's privacy.
wahahahaha.
erfa my dear,your blogskin is already cantik,asal kau nak tukar?
i only change your top.
ok?
suke?
kalau tak suke tell me.
no no,aku tak pilih kasih tau.
i love you two equally.
heehs,but i love aidil more.
hahahahahaha.
ok,aku karut.
tatatata..
and please,take a pictures of yourself alone!
susah betol aku nak letak gambar kau sorang.
toddles!

2009-12-07T06:38:00.000-08:00

those pictures was taken 17 years ago..
looking at those old pictures of mine makes me smile
all alone..now then i realised,how happy i am
when i was a baby 17 years ago..full of love & pampered by the people around
me..enjoy those pictures below(",)

the day erfarhanah(me) was born on this world..

saw this picture of mine playing sea water with daddy..

my 1st birthday celebration on earth..

i was so closed with my late grandma cause she's the one
who pampered me ALOTS..i miss you grandma=(

the day when i first received alot of presents on my birthday

enjoying our trip at genting:)

those time when those shoes that we wear tengah popular,hahaha..

ni time biler power ranger tengah popular,hahahha

when i looked at this pictures,i kept on laughing cause
my hair was like mushroom:)

i miss this house of mine,satu bilik satu hall..although its
small,but this house is full of love from family..i was in nursery while era
was still a baby..

abg love to hugged me in the past..he took care of me sooo well:)

during abg sunat ceremony,hahahahah...

looking back at those pictures,makes me feels sooo happy..
i wish im still a baby..i had lots of fun 17 years ago..
full of love & care from people that are around me..
i also miss my late grandma..shes the one who pampered me alot...
shes the one that i turned too when i had problems but
she left us forever..i miss u grandma..
the reasons for putting all my old pictures in my blog is due
to safita that told us to put it in our blog..
i guessed its your turn now..hope u have fun today watching new moon
with your boifrend:)
will be searching for a job with her tomorow..rindu kau retard girl..:)

2009-12-06T01:57:00.000-08:00

Will be going out with those girls this coming tuesday..
had no much time spent with those girls
cause we kept went in to JB..seriously its tiring..furthermore,
mak busu is going to marry soon on the 1/1/2010..
and the ceremony is going to be held here,at my house..makes me more
tired..before the nikah ceremony,on the 18,19,20,21,we'll be going
to port dickson for WAW..haiya..
this few weeks,i woke up from my sleep at around 2+pm 3..
cannot tahan..really3 tired..yesterday came back home at 2+am..
we gave flyers with abg & his friends at JB..
last minute planning..although it was tiring,but overall it was fun..
no more single ladies..sapita is already attach,erra is gonna
be attach sooner & as for me,im attach too..i got 2 boyfriends...wanna know who????
1st:my father
2nd:my brother
hahahaha...i've got no intention to be in a relationship
for the time being..being single is fun..
u dont have to report strength or watsoever..
but somehow,being single makes u bored cause the only
thing that u did during weekends,stay at home cause
u got no-one to went out with...but,nah,its not that important..
the main thing right now,is to work hard so that u can gain
dozens & dozens of money..

2009-11-29T08:56:00.000-08:00

Being a speaker infront of many people that is older than you?
how would u feel?nervous?happy?
last saturday went JB again but this time round we went JB a lil bit
late due to im not feeling quite well..
so reached there around 7+pm..
on that particular day,its a lil bit different..they came out with
this idea of,every single one of us,must went up onto that small stage
at the clubhouse & act as if u're the speaker on that day..
we kept on laughing cause each & everyone of us was talking shit up on the stage..
haahhaha...cause this was a last minute planning made by them..
i kept on laughing non stop till it came to this one situation when
my named was being called..guess what i did...
immediately i stop laughing,with tissues stuffed into my nose & blur face..
& this time round,they were the one who laugh at me,hahahhha....
but sincerely,being a speaker,its not that bad..
the first moment i step my legs onto the small stage,i feel so scared,but,
when u're holding something on your hand,eventhough its a paper clip or
whatsoever,that feelings of stage fright,will suddenly dissapear..
& i didnt believe that actually & finally,i did talked infront of
people that are older than me up on the stage..
now then i know that being a speaker is not that easy but seriously,its fun..
once u went down the stage,u will surely wanna go up the stage again &
give those talk again...overall,i really gained experience...:)

2009-11-25T04:17:00.001-08:00

To this newly couples,wish u luck ok:)
atlast,both of u made the right decision to be togather,hahaha..
happy kan ita..i know:)
im happy for u too..to your boifrend,aidil dzulkarnain,
last long ok with my one & only besties in this world,hahahha...
last long sampai...ermmm...sampai...sampai kawin,hahahahh....

This few days,u kept appearing in my mind & dreams..
But why?i kept asking why?
Muhd azree,since the day we broke off which was 3 months plus
ago,till now,im not even ready to be in any relationship
again..why?because i still cant forget you..
you just cant fade away from my life..i dont know why..
im happy with my life now without any commitment
but im lonely too..i've heard that u gonna be a father soon..
be a good father & husband ok..i'll pray for your happiness & just so u know,
this is your karma..plz be a goood father & husband for this once ok..
dont hurt girls anymore..

2009-11-17T23:06:00.001-08:00

Been thinking,when will we meet each other again??
meet who???
safita lah..long time never meet her & spent time
togather..surely got many stories to share kan3..
didnt buy her oleh2 when i was at KL,im sorry immiPENG
coz we didnt have enough time for shopping..
it was a tiring trip but yet it was fun:)
thought of meeting her today but her school ends at 6pm..
so leceh..& btw,its 18 lor today..
i think u should know what i mean by this date..:)
will be meeting u tomorow ok..makesure theres a NEW THEME
tomorow ok..:)

2009-11-17T03:08:00.001-08:00

The first picture of the day that was taken last saturday
during our journey to KL..

erra anyhow take our picture without saying 1,2 & 3

4Life family..

sunday morning,we had our breakfast first
before we went to KL CONVENTION

that morning when 4life family are all ready for the convention

Once we reach at the convention centre,the first thing that we
did is taking pictures..

4Life convention IS THE BEST

The scenery from the top of the convention centre

we change our clothes during dinner..
7+pm..

i love the scenery at putra jaya convention centre

3 different countries,combined togather as 1
& become friends:)

the bonding of love between 4life members..

my family

last saturday,went to JB then to KL..
we took alot of pictures togather with the 4life family..
overall,the KL CONVENTION,we really enjoy it..
we had alot of fun there & we make alot of friends there
from different countries..
although these trip is tiring & we dont even had enough sleep,
we really enjoy those moment there:)
4LIFE IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=)

2009-11-11T23:07:00.001-08:00

Was browsing through my computer & saw this pictures..was taken 3
years ago when my hair was short..
& the girl beside me is my brother EX FIANCE..
i've been thinking,how long will i take to save up my money
to buy my OWN car??
renault megane coupe cabriolet series 2.0 grey in colour..
my dream car..my target to get this car is within 2 or 3 years..
mama wanna booked for me for my theory but i
rejected her cause im scared..just imagine,u went to take your theory
test ALONE & you didnt even know anyone there???
owh my...im waiting for sapita to save up her money so we could booked the theory togather..
i wish she wont take a long time,cause if we pass
our driving license already,we can go here & there without taking
public transport:)
hahaha..after the kl conventient,we'll go for an interview
at karaoke cash studio..i need money,she need money too..
i really wanna try celebrate raya overseas next year with 4 life members:)..
if im not wrong,its winter next year during at,ermm,
i forget the country name already,shit!!
but no matter what,i was hoping that we get this job this time round..
no matter if this job ends at 3 or 4 am everyday,im ready
to sacrifice my time as long as i could save up my money..

2009-11-11T04:16:00.001-08:00

theres this 1 thing that till now i cant even do it..
no matter how you force to do
that thing,i wont do it cause i cant..no matter how much
u pay me,i still cant do it..
and that thing is,"i cant be far apart from this retard girl named sarpita":)

told you already,this is what happen when shes bored..

thats the reason why guys always says that we are childish:)

meet her AGAIN100 just now..& todays theme,
baring bawah block..lame theme from sapita..
but it was fun lah overall...
hahahah:)
u know what,now then i realised that i can live without guys
but i CANT live without these 2 people,
safita & erra..they are PRECIOUS GIFT from god to me..
& sapita,those BOLD sentence below are for u..
sincerely from me..
i really cant live without you my BESTFRIEND.....

Theres nothing as nice as someone who shares,
your laughter,your secrets,your wishes & cares,someone
whos there through your good times and tears,
who stays by your side as your friend through out the years..
and that particular person that stays by my side through out the years are
"NUR SAFITA BINTE BOTAKZ"...
HAHHAHA....she told erra that our post was short so
those poems above,i extend it just for you
retard girl;)

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2009-11-10T02:04:00.001-08:00

This is what happen today when we decide to webcam again..
& came out with stupid theme again:)

6 years ago,this is how i looks like..

We kena retrenched from school because
the principal say we looks crazy & nerd..

6 years ago,this is how sarpita looks like..

& erra looks like this..

We love to dress this way when we goes to school..

erra the retard girl

safita,the bacin girl..

Gangsta of the school:)

Are we really gonna look like this when we got pregnant
in the future???hahaha...
this is our second theme...becoming a pregnant women..
gonna save this pictures above cause
i'll surely wanna see whether do we gonna looks the same in
those pictures above when we got pregnant in the future...
sapita,dont smoke when u're pregnant ok,,its bad for the baby,hahahhaa...
cant imagine how u looks like when u got pregnant...hahahah...
lets wait & see:)

2009-11-09T20:53:00.001-08:00

we ate 3 packets of maggie yesterday night coz we were
BORED...

12+ am..both siblings,erra & efa was damned bored..& the thing
that we decide to do is cook 3 packets of maggie
like GU JUN PYO..:)
it was fun but after all..safita i think u should join this game next time:)
and finally,only erra could finish that maggie up..
hahaha...

2009-11-09T05:59:00.000-08:00

saturday morning,we're going to KL..
but before that,we"re heading to JB,gonna meet the rest there..
sincerely,this month & last month,
is a very tiring month for me..these 2 months,i gained lots of knowledge
& this 2 months too theres many obstacles in my life..
as for tomorow,as usual,i will be meeting safita & accompany erra to BEDOK(hate that place)
to meet someone..*her so called someone special kan pita-_-*
hahaha...haiyo..actually im quite lazy to accompany her...
i have my own reasons ok erra:)
i havent even pack my clothes,i havent even decide what to wear..
headache.....
will be updating again tomorrow..was hoping to take lots of pictures
tommorow..:)

2009-11-08T06:14:00.001-08:00

have u ever met someone who got no one to turn too,to share his
problem with &

came up to u & share every single things that happen & cry infront of u??
that thing really happen to me..
& i never thought that a strong person like ******,would cry infront of me
& share his problem with me although im not close with him,neither do i talk to him
cause im only close with his 2 small siblings..
now then i realised that,even if we are kind to people,
that doesnt mean they will treat u the same as u treat them..cause u will never know
what will happen in the end..
to ******,i think u are being too kind..
u must always think about YOURSELF first before u wanna help those
people who are shortage of money & dont worry,
1 day,u'll surely get ur N97..
so...dont think much...& owh ya,,i nearly forget,ur girlfrend is sooo pretty:)
hahaha...i saw her already..at facebook:)
she's sooo cute:)
haha...last long ok:)
bring her along during the trip ok...:)

2009-11-04T02:10:00.000-08:00

this is what usually happen to us if we started to take
lots of pictures..

cant be separated..

she becomes like that when she step into ITE:)

shes KPO to buy the same brand of shoes like erra:)

when they saw this shades,this is what happens to their new look

erra,efa & GEMOK:)

the last long frienship which CANT be bought
by MONEY..

i was wishing that we didnt become strangers & be as pernormal
like we used to be..
but,unfortunately,we are becoming really like strangers..
dont even talk to each other although we are friends..
although coincidencely,yesterday,we saw each other,we both act as if we are
like strangers...really like strangers...
but,time cant move backwards...
its little too late...but its ok...i believe,we both gonna be fine having our own life...
ICA girl,wish him get that girl =)
i really pray hard that this time,a perfect girl he will have=)
i believe that god heard my prayers already
& thats the reason why the ICA girl came...
amin...thanks god for giving my friend a perfect girl this time round=)

hope you people enjoy the pictures above..was taken after we came back
from library...& i dont care whether people
give me names like "eh budak ni da jadi bookworm"...=)
cause gaining knowledge is fun ....
Enjoy those pictures ok..

2009-11-01T20:52:00.000-08:00

its just a can..i dont drink..

shes always been there for me...no matter what..
shes always beside me..
my ups & down,only she knew it..
about my life & how i feel,
ONLY she knew it..theres nothing better than FRIENDSHIP..
:)

2009-11-01T15:21:00.000-08:00

when boredom strikes,,this is what we usually do:)
webcam:)

alien from PLUTO..

alien with 8 tandok

those crazy people

when boredom strikes,the things that we usually did is webcam..
we love webcam...
cause we'll surely came out with stupid2 ideas
of how to take pictures...
enjoy the muke tak senonoh pictures of us...:)

2009-11-01T13:33:00.000-08:00

2009-11-01T01:55:00.000-07:00

haiyum & nyonya iqah birthday

2009-11-01T01:22:00.001-07:00

pictures above was taken on 24 october..my birthday:)
went to jb again...
celebrate my birthday 2 times at jb,,this time we went to
play bowling...so exciting:)

23 october went to jb to give out flyers there...went to alot of places...
we manage to gave out all the flyers
within a day...it was tiring..the next day supposed to be my b'dae &
i really didnt know that they plan something for me on that day...
hahahaah...they bring me to "singgah selalu" restaurant...
reached there around 10+ 11 pm...
11.55 like that,i heard the DJ there wishing me a happy birthday..
i was shocked to death cause everyone there was looking at me &
the whole customer there was singing for me a birthday song due to the DJ request..
hahaha...memorable moment..
thanks to mama & the master mind,haiyum...

2009-10-21T23:31:00.000-07:00

Pretending that i dont love you is like pretending i dont need air.
When you are in love & you get hurt,its like a cut,it will heal,but there will always be a scar.
Whenever i cried he would always make me feel that he would change
the world for me,but now im crying & he's not here.
You can close your eyes to things that you dont want to see,
but you cant close your heart to things that you dont want to feel.
When i see you smile & know that is not for me,that is when i miss you the most.
A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water,but it can tOuch the soul
as it runs down someone face.
I dont have to be your first love ,but i do want to be your last.
A million words would not bring you back,i know because i've tried,neither would a million tears,
i know because i've tried.
Love doesnt make the world goes round,love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does.
First dates are awkwards,first love are irreplaceable & first heartbreaks are unforgettable.
Love that we cannot have is the one that last the longest,hurts the deepest & feels
the strongest.
I keep telling myself that i dont love you & that i dont miss you,hoping someday
i'll believe it.
A break up is like a broken mirror,it is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself
trying to fix it.
Love is when you cant stop looking at him,even if he'll never look back.
If i had to choose between loving you & breathing,i would use my last breath
to tell you "i love you".
The sparkles in your eyes put the stars to shame.
Its every girls dream to have a guy calls her at 3 am just to say
"hey baby..i just wanted to tell you..i love you"
He can make me laugh a thousands laughs but he kills me inside.
Love is not finding someone to live with,its finding someone you cant live without.
Love with passion,serve with love,& die with no regrets.
I only thought about you once today..i never stopped.

*Atlast i've manage to complete my quotes that i made above all by myself...

2009-10-21T22:03:00.000-07:00

if its not because of u muhd azree,i wont be like this..
if not because of u,i wont suffer like this...
u make me suffer...if not because of that girl,we'll be togather till now...
but u choose to leave me & be with ur ex lover..
everything is because of u,that i till now cant believe guys...
everything is because of u azree that till now,my tears still
falls down my cheek every time i cant get
the guy that i love....
the reason why i always think of u when im having problems is
because,my HATRED towards u are damn BIG...I sacrifice alot for u,but what did
i get??i didnt eat in school just because
i wanna to give u my pocket money since u told me that u dont have money
to eat...do u ever appreciate how big is my love???no u never
appreciate it..& now a guy named "wan" teaches me whats the meaning of "life"
but,hes gone too,just like u....

people out there says a bad girl like me,dont deserve
a good guy & happiness..
yes,its true that im bad,
but that was in my past...
cant a bad person like me change to become a better one???
i dont want to be bad neither do i want
all this ,,but guys are
making my life bad...
yes i am the serious type of person who sticks to one guy,
but dont take advantage on my weakness...
u guys left me after giving me hopes...
why why why??
u guys makes me hate guys....
u guys makes me ruined my life after giving me high hopes....
since people keep on saying i dont deserve this & i dont deserve that,,
i've make my decision to be like how im suppose to be in my past..
im sorry,im sorry...
this is not what i want to be...
but i have to...;(
no guys are sincere...
no guys are faithful...
i swear,,no guys are like the above.......
i hate guys!forever